Lights. Camera. Drama.

The "You are Going Places" Award! Ray J, you should not have! Thanks hun! This award could not have come at a better time. I am a bit of a rut. Last week, I told you about my YouTube Culture and Trends Editor position dilemma. When I heard the job was filled through a Google recruiter,  I feel like I am going nothing in my life. You can take a look at my blog to get a glimpse of my bumpy road.

Since this discovery, I have been thinking quite profoundly about my future. In my mind. On the computer. Everywhere I cross. I do not know when recruiters will finally realize that I am more than a resume and interviewee. Perhaps, I am not doing enough to get their attention on my part. I just have to work a bit smarter, bolder, quicker, and harder to get what I want in life. Reinvention is a continuous cycle for me.

Despite my shortcomings, I always see the positive side at the end of the yellow brick road. Whether you are in circumstances worse and more incomprehensible than my own, if Dorothy got home with her red, glittery shoes, then you can click your heels three times hard enough to achieve your goals.

I appreciate that there are people out there like Ray-J and my social media family that are rooting for me to succeed. I am going places and with my witty charm and determination, there is no point in stopping me.

The main rule of this award was to answer the question: Where I will see myself in ten years?....Such as a vague question to begin a conversation with. What would a random person say?

Random person: Omg, I want to live in a big house out in the country with children and live happily after.

I am one of those people out there that don't have a year or 5 year plan all laid out because life is unpredictable. I do keep a weekly plan, my New Years Resolution, monthly goals, and blogging resolution, but I do not live by them each and every second of my life. Things happen that are out of my control. It is best to work your life around your goals. Have goals, not objectives; goals that are realistic and idealistic with a bit of flexibility thrown in.

So for instance, if you want to be an astronaut, you can be and there is no stopping you, but you have to understand that there are events that will be beyond our control. What if down the road a loved one passes away or a freak accident profoundly impacts the rest of your life and your goals? Did you have that listed on your 5-year plan? Think about it.

But I must answer the question. In 10 years, I would like to see myself out of my parent's house INDEFINITELY, a stable and innovative career that takes me out of my comfort zone, includes traveling of some sort, and helps me market the next generation of Internet and creative projects, an amazing NY loft, money to invest in and the opportunity to show the world that I am the baddest bitch out there. (Excuse my french! :D) And if this also counts, I sometimes imagine myself running the most influential and wealthiest company in the world and using that capital to save the world from yet another economic depression.
So where do I from here? Continue with my volunteer work, rebuild my skills and resume, network with more people, and use all my sheer power to impress the recruiters long enough to love me. And since I am a lovable, amazing Smithie with dreams and determination, I will never know what life has in store for me!

Hey everyone. I miss the sound of the keyboard as I stroke the keys to create another amazing blog post. All last week I was busy with my volunteer work and I did not have the time or energy to write more blog posts.  I promise that this week I will write up to three blog posts. I have everything planned out there ahead of schedule. I should have written a blog post last week stating that I was on another mini break, but it is too late.

Anyhow, I have some rather bad news. On June 16th, I found this amazing job opportunity, the You Tube Culture and Trends Editor position on Linkedin.com. I was so excited because I love new media and was in the process of completing the online job application. Last night and I will never forget this. I was talking to my mom in the dining room about the job position and she was like "Honey, I hope you get it done. You never know whether or not the job won't be there anymore." I confidently stated that Google/You Tube usually have their jobs posted within a one-month time frame minimum and that I had plenty of time to apply. Turns out, this morning as I was searching Linkedin.com and Google Jobs, I learned that Google/You Tube were no longer accepting job applications...... I felt a sharp pain in the back of my head from that moment on.

So here is my dilemma. I can walk away from the accident or use this opportunity to get things done. I scheduled a Wednesday phone interview with a friend of mine at the Smith College Career Development Office to review my resume and cover letter, but I might instead have him look at my resume, so it can be ready to go when the next job opportunity comes. I will try my very best to connect with a YouTube recruiter on Linkedin so that he or she could look over my job application. I am not backing away from this opportunity. I know what it feels to be unheard and I will not allow this one position slip away from me. God, I sound like someone who is eager to confess her love to her love interest. Hollywood, do not take my idea please! When you are passionate about something, you don't let a good opportunity pass you by. Otherwise, there is nothing in life worth fighting for.

I would like you to answer these questions because I need some guidance!

Were you in a similar situation beforehand? How did you handle this situation? Were there any consequences?